i cant believe how long its been since i added a journal entry.

well i guess i am here now. is till check in every day...but my muse has left me for bigger and better things elsewhere. i hope she comes back soon though. i miss her.

i am in a retched mood. thanks to my mother in law. what is it with that woman? she is the most disapproving, look down her nose at me, negative, tight lipped, BITCH! i want to go screaming up the street pulling out my hair and cussing up a storm.

its bad enough i have my own mother...now i have this harpy too. she nags me to nag her son, if he irritates her.....im the one that gets it. god im such a doormat. what should i say...if you have nothing nice to say...then shut your face? actually that sounds nice. but i dont have the guts. and mike just plain isnt speaking to her anymore. i guess i can block her email. im just no good at being so rude. unless its my own mother. and i guess im not even so good at that either. (right celtictreeoflife?)

fuckityfuckfuckpoop

i need a hole to go hide in and never come out.